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Tonight I am not alright. My body and spirit are tired and exhausted from holding on to hope and a break that never seems to land on me. I don’t know if am alone in this but I feel like I only receive blessings that are only enough to keep me going for a short while, get me to the very door of the thing I desire, and then get yanked right off my feet. I only get to peek at the thing I want but never get it. Is my life purpose here only to provide an example of unfulfilled desires and wants? It feels that way. My heart is broken and tired of struggling to beat on a steady rhythm. I don’t think am meant to ever catch a break enough to actually rest.